I always thought that stress is the worse thing that can happen in life. It wasn't. Despite of how heavy I feel this semester's workload is, despite of having to spend 60% of my leisure time in doing school work, it is still not as bad as what I thought.
My only confort was Jeff's coming concert next year in March. I was really looking forward to it. Initially I was so glad and excited about it's existence. Somehow it is my only time which I think I can temporarily put aside all my worries and troubles, and have a good time.
However, it wasn't the way. I was reminding myself about the concert this morning, when this scary thought suddenly came across my mind. I was at the edge of crying. Can you believe it? What's so fun about going to a concert ALONE? Even if it's the most "happening" concert that will ever take place, and contains such a "WOW" factor, but you're going ALL ALONE! With no one to share the fun, the music and everything, what's so excited about it? I can't believe I was looking forward to the concert.
Jeff (Qing Ge Wang Zi - Prince of love song). So great. Am I suppose to cry ALONE listening to his songs? Loneliness. I never realise how torturous it can be until today. It is so much painful and lonelier than death. Only if death is a choice, seriously speaking, I wouldn't mind.
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