Wednesday, November 3
Rabbit Muffin - 一只生病而被遗弃在宠物店外的兔子
“还以为领养你能带给你最好的照顾，并且好好疼爱你。怎么知道... Muffin，虽然我们相处的时间不到一天，但你要知道，你不是孤独的。我把你抱在怀里的那一刻，我只希望你知道，还是有人那么珍惜你，那么爱你，永远爱你...”
Monday, October 18
Tuesday, September 21
空壳
第二学期的课已经上了一半。短短的两个半月，课堂的内容实在不少。我学习的效率是越来越慢了。不知是不是因为当了家教，因此复习的时间少了。每次刚复习完，一回头，复习过的内容就开始模糊不清了。真的好讨厌自己那么差的记性。别人用十分钟完成的事我却得用双倍的努力才能完成。
这阵子的我如个空壳。我好想知道如何把这空荡荡的心填满。‘未来’好模糊。因怕前面有个坑，所以没勇气往前行。只有如幽魂般飘荡才能避免自己掉进坑里。时间渐渐过去，我还能逃避多久，还能飘浮多久?
自从开学，昨天是我心情最好的一天。也许听着啊哲的歌是唯一让我觉得开心的事。似乎烦恼都渐渐如白云般散开。歌词感人(难过)的内容依然能带给我一份安全感。‘幸福’，我找不到。可能我一生中最大的幸福就在此吧。
希望我能从中得到力量，使我继续往前奋斗。
这阵子的我如个空壳。我好想知道如何把这空荡荡的心填满。‘未来’好模糊。因怕前面有个坑，所以没勇气往前行。只有如幽魂般飘荡才能避免自己掉进坑里。时间渐渐过去，我还能逃避多久，还能飘浮多久?
自从开学，昨天是我心情最好的一天。也许听着啊哲的歌是唯一让我觉得开心的事。似乎烦恼都渐渐如白云般散开。歌词感人(难过)的内容依然能带给我一份安全感。‘幸福’，我找不到。可能我一生中最大的幸福就在此吧。
希望我能从中得到力量，使我继续往前奋斗。
Tuesday, April 13
nothing goes right - but happy afterall =)
it was early in the morning, i woke up - decided that i should go for a jog. walked towards the window, the sky looked gloomy, as if i was about to rain. and i decided to to back to sleep. when i woke up, i realised that it did not rain at all. it was not the sky that was gloomy. it was me without my spects (ok.. as well as my laziness).
When i finally woke up, washed up, i went school to register for my examination. having the thought that being early would put me in a good position in choosing the desired slot/date
(which is one week after my F1 paper on 24 april), i realised that i was totally wrong when i was staring hard at the schedule - hoping that the harder i stare, the more chance of having the '19 May 10' (the first slot in May) being changed to '9 May 10'. it kinda irritates me whenever sth happens - out of the way as planned. 19 May is just too near to my other 2 papers!
That started the 'wrong mood' for afternoon class. i tried hard to concentrate, but simply couldn't figure out the logic/link in the content of the lecture. i thought that perhaps revising at home, thinking and figuring out alone would help (usually it does).. but it doesn't.
bought sth online - it was not received. i argued with that person who initially gave me an "we have adly sent - call singpost and ask. it none of our business" impression. 2nd irritation of the day. but luckily he apologised. reply me in a professional tone. explained and gave me more advice of what i could do - that was a good service recovery. but still, i need to waste time calling singpost.
lastly, sth which i'm not too sure if that was what that ends my day with a smile - with satisfaction - with my undone revision right in front of me.
When i finally woke up, washed up, i went school to register for my examination. having the thought that being early would put me in a good position in choosing the desired slot/date
(which is one week after my F1 paper on 24 april), i realised that i was totally wrong when i was staring hard at the schedule - hoping that the harder i stare, the more chance of having the '19 May 10' (the first slot in May) being changed to '9 May 10'. it kinda irritates me whenever sth happens - out of the way as planned. 19 May is just too near to my other 2 papers!
That started the 'wrong mood' for afternoon class. i tried hard to concentrate, but simply couldn't figure out the logic/link in the content of the lecture. i thought that perhaps revising at home, thinking and figuring out alone would help (usually it does).. but it doesn't.
bought sth online - it was not received. i argued with that person who initially gave me an "we have adly sent - call singpost and ask. it none of our business" impression. 2nd irritation of the day. but luckily he apologised. reply me in a professional tone. explained and gave me more advice of what i could do - that was a good service recovery. but still, i need to waste time calling singpost.
lastly, sth which i'm not too sure if that was what that ends my day with a smile - with satisfaction - with my undone revision right in front of me.
Thursday, March 18
折磨
時間過得好快﹐轉眼間就快考試了! 現在每天簡直手忙腳亂。感覺自己生存在無奈中。日子過得快喘不過氣來了。我有個不祥的預感 - 接下來的日子會越來越忙﹐將不會再平靜。
有時候會懷疑﹐究竟自己要的是怎樣的生活。並且會有傻傻的念頭 - 如果我不是在這花花綠綠的時代里出事那該多好。什麼也不用想。因為在那個時代﹐大概根本沒有我選擇的權力。
說到選擇﹐那是我最最討厭做的事。人生為甚麼要作出那麼多選擇? 它對我來說是種痛苦﹐是種犧牲。因為無論你作出哪個抉擇﹐你都犧牲了擁有其餘‘選擇’的權力。就好比有一天上帝對你說: "你想擁有財富(但體制虛弱)﹐或健康(但貧窮)?"。這不是進退兩難嗎? 有時候寧願自己‘無從選擇’﹐免去了那‘犧牲’的痛。
我並不是在說廢話! 如果有一天有一個算命先生告訴你那麼一句話:"一旦你‘有錢’﹐你的身體並會十分差。" 你會怎麼辦?
有時候會懷疑﹐究竟自己要的是怎樣的生活。並且會有傻傻的念頭 - 如果我不是在這花花綠綠的時代里出事那該多好。什麼也不用想。因為在那個時代﹐大概根本沒有我選擇的權力。
說到選擇﹐那是我最最討厭做的事。人生為甚麼要作出那麼多選擇? 它對我來說是種痛苦﹐是種犧牲。因為無論你作出哪個抉擇﹐你都犧牲了擁有其餘‘選擇’的權力。就好比有一天上帝對你說: "你想擁有財富(但體制虛弱)﹐或健康(但貧窮)?"。這不是進退兩難嗎? 有時候寧願自己‘無從選擇’﹐免去了那‘犧牲’的痛。
我並不是在說廢話! 如果有一天有一個算命先生告訴你那麼一句話:"一旦你‘有錢’﹐你的身體並會十分差。" 你會怎麼辦?
Monday, February 15
sometime it just happens...
you wouldn't exactly understand how it feels like when something happens - until it happens to you.
speechless..
what a great chinese new year..
speechless..
what a great chinese new year..
Thursday, February 11
Distracted...
Haven't really been doing what i was supposed to be doing. notes since last week were not yet completed.. it will be crazy - when i decides to work hard again. torturing..
nevertheless, i had enjoyed myself this one week. done so much things - other than doing revision.
Last Thursday: Went kbox with peiyu&connie.
Last Saturday: Went Sentosa with tony for a walk. & shopping for CNY clothes at Vivo.
Last Sunday: BBQ with my cousins at my house.
Past Monday: Celebrated Jacinth's belated 21st birthday.
Past Tuesday: Went for a haircut at PS with Tony.
Yesterday (Wednesday): Bake CNY cookies..
Today (Thursday): Just came back from Kbox with Tony.
Result from the past colourful week = no notes, no revision, and the zombie me..
I feel LETHARGIC!
I feel FREE!
but...
I feel the STRESS too!
gosh.. shall work on my notes tmr.. hard hard.. haha.. =P
nevertheless, i had enjoyed myself this one week. done so much things - other than doing revision.
Last Thursday: Went kbox with peiyu&connie.
Last Saturday: Went Sentosa with tony for a walk. & shopping for CNY clothes at Vivo.
Last Sunday: BBQ with my cousins at my house.
Past Monday: Celebrated Jacinth's belated 21st birthday.
Past Tuesday: Went for a haircut at PS with Tony.
Yesterday (Wednesday): Bake CNY cookies..
Today (Thursday): Just came back from Kbox with Tony.
Result from the past colourful week = no notes, no revision, and the zombie me..
I feel LETHARGIC!
I feel FREE!
but...
I feel the STRESS too!
gosh.. shall work on my notes tmr.. hard hard.. haha.. =P
Sunday, January 31
happy birthday to tony's mum~
Woke up at 10am this morning, after less than 5 hours of sleep? the feeling was horrendous! woke up.. wasted some time.. can't really remembered what i did.. and went on typing out my notes for F1. I almost died from the sneezing.. the feeling of "so hot yet so cold" couldn't be more irritating..
went over to tony's place at about 6pm, had dinner, cut cake, play with his niece..and came back. he droved me home, dropped me at the lobby. and SUDDENLY, i saw a pot of "mini orange" plant at the lobby. and i recalled of the incident last year. I was asking tony how come no one steals the orange from the plant. and I decided to find out the answer by plucking out an orange, and.... EAT IT!
haha... and I discovered why.. cos it was sour. real sour.. >.<
there goes another day. and will be going for doctor appointment tmr. plus JAB. sucks...
went over to tony's place at about 6pm, had dinner, cut cake, play with his niece..and came back. he droved me home, dropped me at the lobby. and SUDDENLY, i saw a pot of "mini orange" plant at the lobby. and i recalled of the incident last year. I was asking tony how come no one steals the orange from the plant. and I decided to find out the answer by plucking out an orange, and.... EAT IT!
haha... and I discovered why.. cos it was sour. real sour.. >.<
there goes another day. and will be going for doctor appointment tmr. plus JAB. sucks...
Saturday, January 30
happy birthday to christine~
just celebrated christine's birthday with her eating steamboat. the two ambitious persons took so much food that they couldn't even finish the first serving. just a word to describe how we were feeling - bloated. took a walk and we went to mac at bugis junction for a drink. we chatted until 3am, and decided that we should take a cab home.
she thanked me for accompanying her tonight. but instead, i felt more of her accompanying me. at least i can keep my tears away with her ard me. how fortunate. i didn't even lose my temper over the taxi driver who took 45mins to drive me home from bugis. =)
i'm feeling so tired, and down with sorethroat and flu. but i dun wish to sleep. simply couldn't bear to end this happy night. only if this could last a little longer..
she thanked me for accompanying her tonight. but instead, i felt more of her accompanying me. at least i can keep my tears away with her ard me. how fortunate. i didn't even lose my temper over the taxi driver who took 45mins to drive me home from bugis. =)
i'm feeling so tired, and down with sorethroat and flu. but i dun wish to sleep. simply couldn't bear to end this happy night. only if this could last a little longer..
Friday, January 29
Tuesday, January 26
Wednesday, January 6
F1, F2, F3... + F4 ?????
It sounds like a good news upon hearing that the exams of the subjects that i'll be taking are MCQ based. Yet it bacame a dilemma when the lecturer told us the entire course structure. My initial plan was to complete this course within 2.5 yrs (hopefully..)
2010
1st sem: F1, F2, F3
2nd sem: F4, F5, F6
2011
1st sem: F7, F8, F9
2nd sem:P1, P2, P3
2012
1st sem: P4, P5, P6, P7 (choose 2)
* same colour indicates same subject at different levels
If I can push F4 to this sem (and pass all..), i'll be able to do F7 next sem, which makes more sense. if I skipped this subject (after F3 this sem) next sem, i may probably forget the foundation.
but the issue is.. if i only do F1 (tue class), F2 (wed class) and F3 (fri class), I'll be able to concentrate on these foundation subjects! Sigh.. and that the classes for F4 on thur is already full. And the only class i can sign up for is (fri night class), which means my friday schedule will become 2-6pm, 6.45-10.15pm. MADNESS!!
I hate to make such decisions.. neither here nor there. Looking at the amt of notes I have for only F2 and F3, i think both choices (take or not to take F4) are just as bad.
2010
1st sem: F1, F2, F3
2nd sem: F4, F5, F6
2011
1st sem: F7, F8, F9
2nd sem:P1, P2, P3
2012
1st sem: P4, P5, P6, P7 (choose 2)
* same colour indicates same subject at different levels
If I can push F4 to this sem (and pass all..), i'll be able to do F7 next sem, which makes more sense. if I skipped this subject (after F3 this sem) next sem, i may probably forget the foundation.
but the issue is.. if i only do F1 (tue class), F2 (wed class) and F3 (fri class), I'll be able to concentrate on these foundation subjects! Sigh.. and that the classes for F4 on thur is already full. And the only class i can sign up for is (fri night class), which means my friday schedule will become 2-6pm, 6.45-10.15pm. MADNESS!!
I hate to make such decisions.. neither here nor there. Looking at the amt of notes I have for only F2 and F3, i think both choices (take or not to take F4) are just as bad.
Tuesday, January 5
first day of school..
i know this title sounds weird.. cos it's like my 5th "first day of school" since kindergarten. well.. i was kinda excited before today. i don't know why. but the moment i stepped into the auditorium, the excitement faded. A new environment indeed, but nothing alien. I got this "lecture again" feeling. In another word it's simply... boring. and i can't stop yawning throughout the lesson.
4 hours of lesson, and the lecturer spent 2 hours introducing the school, the module, advancement, and himself.. and by the end of the 2 hours, i was almost done reading and understanding the lecture notes. I was listening initially.. but halfway through he was cracking too much lame jokes to the extent that it was getting onto my nerves. and i simply have to do sth to prevent myself from having the "ha ha ha.. very funny" thought. watever..
The end of the 4th hour indicates the freedom of my restlessness. Woohoo! but it wasn't too free afterall.. at least my arms aren't. i carried the 2cm thick textbook to school, which then the lecturer announced it as good news, saying tt we do not have to bring to for class. the problem is.. on top of that, i still have to carry the 3cm thick notes supplied by the lecturer home. And home meaning from campus to aljunied train station, standing all the way till pasir ris train station, buying dinner at whitesands and walking home!
A new module tmr.. now i wonder if i should bring the textbook to school. sigh.. okok.. just bring.. i pray hard for history not to repeat. oh god, please be kind to me!
4 hours of lesson, and the lecturer spent 2 hours introducing the school, the module, advancement, and himself.. and by the end of the 2 hours, i was almost done reading and understanding the lecture notes. I was listening initially.. but halfway through he was cracking too much lame jokes to the extent that it was getting onto my nerves. and i simply have to do sth to prevent myself from having the "ha ha ha.. very funny" thought. watever..
The end of the 4th hour indicates the freedom of my restlessness. Woohoo! but it wasn't too free afterall.. at least my arms aren't. i carried the 2cm thick textbook to school, which then the lecturer announced it as good news, saying tt we do not have to bring to for class. the problem is.. on top of that, i still have to carry the 3cm thick notes supplied by the lecturer home. And home meaning from campus to aljunied train station, standing all the way till pasir ris train station, buying dinner at whitesands and walking home!
A new module tmr.. now i wonder if i should bring the textbook to school. sigh.. okok.. just bring.. i pray hard for history not to repeat. oh god, please be kind to me!
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