今年的圣诞似乎和过去几年的圣诞截然不同。过去的圣诞都在表哥表姐家庆祝。今年我们把每年的12月24日提前庆祝，再加上表弟表妹一起到餐馆吃一顿。虽然气氛热闹了许多，但感觉似乎不一样-不如以往温馨。感觉有点儿遗憾…
今年的圣诞在明宏家庆祝。有点陌生，也许是不太习惯吧。但还是挺开心的。
这几天想了好多，心理一年多的结似乎松开了。挣扎了那么久，也是时候往前走了。过去所发生的点点滴滴 深深的印在脑海里。忘不掉也不想忘掉。我不想一年多的回忆化为乌有。因为我珍惜过，也爱过。它将永远，远成为我记忆的一部分…
我非常清楚，如今我应该珍惜的是什么。我这二十年来所累计的遗憾够多了。就到此为止吧…
Thursday, December 25
Wednesday, December 3
Busy Busy Busy
Haven't been blogging lately, but I really love to if I have the time! Plenty of things on the "to do list" are still left undone. This semester is perhaps so much undesired, yet ironically enjoyable. Lectures, tutorials, tests and deadlines. And so what's enjoyable?
No idea. Field trips? Probably. Perhaps my cruise lecturer. He’s the best lecturer out of my 3 years in poly. If he has been with us since our first year, probably life in poly wouldn’t be this... (short of vocabulary..) foreign. Yeap. Simply don’t feel the sense of belongingness.
Last week was a TOTAL nuisance.
Calculus test on Tue (25 Nov),
Cruise test on Thur (27Nov),
Cruise Field Trip on Fri (28Nov),
Spa & Wellness Individual Assignment, Destination&Planning Individual assignment, Club test on following Monday (1Dec)
Club Field trip on Tue (2Dec).
So now u can imagine how I’m feeling now. Barely can do anything. I'm already in a holiday mood! If this goes on, I'll be dead. Next week will be mid-sem test. I only have one calculus paper on Thur. Seokming just told me that we have another test on Facilities management. That's crazy. I still have no idea what tt subject is all about! Sigh.. and all the projects... it seems never ending. Stress... Again, time to buck up!
Strangely unlike every other semester, I would pray that it would end fast, but not totally for this semester. I LOVE Spa&Wellness mgt***, and Cruise Business mgt*****. They're wonderfully AWESOME*****!
We had our cruise project consultation last week. Despite that there was no progress from where we had last stopped, we had a “consultation” for 40mins. It was a chit chat session. We were so into our own nonsense that Mr Mike Yeo(Cruise lecturer/Tutor) and us were laughing till we had to dry our tears.
For me, not because of the jokes they were cracking. It was because he was too wonderful. He was asking about our previous semesters the classes and how bad it has been for some of us. I almost couldn’t hold back my tears.
He shared with us his life learing experience since he graduated from JC. His experience was a lead to what I should do after graduation. To start all over in language development. He shared that he was born in a Chinese speaking environment, thus couldn’t speak or write well in English. After JC, he decided to take a course in English. I couldn’t remember the name of it. Gotta ask him again. Well, I shall choose his path. Well, you may laugh. But I NEED that ability to speak well!
Tt's all for school.
Other event over the last weeks. Tony's sis ROM & Wedding. I shall upload the photos when I have them =)
For the time being.. Cruise field trip photos. Oh, yes, Bintan Holiday photo as well.
No idea. Field trips? Probably. Perhaps my cruise lecturer. He’s the best lecturer out of my 3 years in poly. If he has been with us since our first year, probably life in poly wouldn’t be this... (short of vocabulary..) foreign. Yeap. Simply don’t feel the sense of belongingness.
Last week was a TOTAL nuisance.
Calculus test on Tue (25 Nov),
Cruise test on Thur (27Nov),
Cruise Field Trip on Fri (28Nov),
Spa & Wellness Individual Assignment, Destination&Planning Individual assignment, Club test on following Monday (1Dec)
Club Field trip on Tue (2Dec).
So now u can imagine how I’m feeling now. Barely can do anything. I'm already in a holiday mood! If this goes on, I'll be dead. Next week will be mid-sem test. I only have one calculus paper on Thur. Seokming just told me that we have another test on Facilities management. That's crazy. I still have no idea what tt subject is all about! Sigh.. and all the projects... it seems never ending. Stress... Again, time to buck up!
Strangely unlike every other semester, I would pray that it would end fast, but not totally for this semester. I LOVE Spa&Wellness mgt***, and Cruise Business mgt*****. They're wonderfully AWESOME*****!
We had our cruise project consultation last week. Despite that there was no progress from where we had last stopped, we had a “consultation” for 40mins. It was a chit chat session. We were so into our own nonsense that Mr Mike Yeo(Cruise lecturer/Tutor) and us were laughing till we had to dry our tears.
For me, not because of the jokes they were cracking. It was because he was too wonderful. He was asking about our previous semesters the classes and how bad it has been for some of us. I almost couldn’t hold back my tears.
He shared with us his life learing experience since he graduated from JC. His experience was a lead to what I should do after graduation. To start all over in language development. He shared that he was born in a Chinese speaking environment, thus couldn’t speak or write well in English. After JC, he decided to take a course in English. I couldn’t remember the name of it. Gotta ask him again. Well, I shall choose his path. Well, you may laugh. But I NEED that ability to speak well!
Tt's all for school.
Other event over the last weeks. Tony's sis ROM & Wedding. I shall upload the photos when I have them =)
For the time being.. Cruise field trip photos. Oh, yes, Bintan Holiday photo as well.
Saturday, November 1
Laziness
Positive:
I just realised that it has been so long since I last blog. Well, all in all to summarise my past 1.5months, almost nth except for working. Sounds a little sad ya? But i did enjoyed the last 2months (working at merlion park, F1, Singapore Visitor Centre, ILove Children Organization), as well as my birthday celebration with tony. I miss the prawns!
And of cos, the Bintan trip with my cousins on the 18th &19th, Just before the school term starts... It was my first overseas trip without my parents! Haha.. I really enjoyed myself with them at Bintan Argo, not just because of the activities, but also their presence. They had a mini belated birthday celebration for me over at Bintan. Something special this year. And not forgetting the facial & spa treat from alvin, ivy & shuyi. It was a fruitful & educational trip (well, you'll see what you dun usually see in your comfort zone) =)
School term starts. I was pretty much waiting for it. I had guessed that it would be a busy semester, but nevertheless some of the modules seems fun! 7modules. A little crazy. That's a lot. 1 nonsense - APEL; 3 exciting - Cruise, Spa & Calculus; 1 goodtoknow - Destination planning and development; 1 not really interested - Club management; 1 istilldungetituptillnow - L&R facilities management.
Negative:
Birthday is great. Except the part where your friends are all busy with their lives, and noone seems to remember your birthday. It feels like... well, i can't put it in words.
Another culture shock - A new semester. Why does it seems like a new school??? Everyone to me felt so distance, except for those who were in stb for internship. It seems weird. Lonely is the word. Seokming, vanessa and I were all in different classes. Then I realised, I'm just an individual. Please let this lonely sememter ends fast...
I just realised that it has been so long since I last blog. Well, all in all to summarise my past 1.5months, almost nth except for working. Sounds a little sad ya? But i did enjoyed the last 2months (working at merlion park, F1, Singapore Visitor Centre, ILove Children Organization), as well as my birthday celebration with tony. I miss the prawns!
And of cos, the Bintan trip with my cousins on the 18th &19th, Just before the school term starts... It was my first overseas trip without my parents! Haha.. I really enjoyed myself with them at Bintan Argo, not just because of the activities, but also their presence. They had a mini belated birthday celebration for me over at Bintan. Something special this year. And not forgetting the facial & spa treat from alvin, ivy & shuyi. It was a fruitful & educational trip (well, you'll see what you dun usually see in your comfort zone) =)
School term starts. I was pretty much waiting for it. I had guessed that it would be a busy semester, but nevertheless some of the modules seems fun! 7modules. A little crazy. That's a lot. 1 nonsense - APEL; 3 exciting - Cruise, Spa & Calculus; 1 goodtoknow - Destination planning and development; 1 not really interested - Club management; 1 istilldungetituptillnow - L&R facilities management.
Negative:
Birthday is great. Except the part where your friends are all busy with their lives, and noone seems to remember your birthday. It feels like... well, i can't put it in words.
Another culture shock - A new semester. Why does it seems like a new school??? Everyone to me felt so distance, except for those who were in stb for internship. It seems weird. Lonely is the word. Seokming, vanessa and I were all in different classes. Then I realised, I'm just an individual. Please let this lonely sememter ends fast...
Wednesday, September 17
@ Games Convention Asia 2008 - Day 1 - Part I
I'm working, I'm blogging, I'm hungry! Haha.. Sooooooo BORED! I thought that I might be busy and would be flooded with many questions which I couldn't answer. Finally 2.5 hours have passed - yet so slowly. Visitor count? One so far. 5.5 more hours to go. Not all the booth have started. Just right infront of me, I saw 5 empty booths.
I should be glad that I'm here actually. Working alone without having to listen to some old irritating colleagues' gossip. you wouldn't believe understand how irritating and horrible their mouth can be. If someday should there be a news regarding suspicious bag were to be found in changi airport, it'll turn out to be that the bomb in the suspicious bag exploded and killed many people.
Seokming called me some days ago saying that there are funny rumours (source: Geenee Tang) regarding my dad wrote a letter to STB to complaint about someone. My reply to her was, "How capable! My dad complaints to STB and I'm the last person to know. Or she know my dad?" Can't believe an old woman who lived almost half a century and yet doing something this childish.
Chill... Ok. I shall not spoil my day because of that old woman. Anyway, haha.. I can't stop turning to look behind me. Got buffet! hehe.. So hungry. Sniff sniff..
I should be glad that I'm here actually. Working alone without having to listen to some old irritating colleagues' gossip. you wouldn't believe understand how irritating and horrible their mouth can be. If someday should there be a news regarding suspicious bag were to be found in changi airport, it'll turn out to be that the bomb in the suspicious bag exploded and killed many people.
Seokming called me some days ago saying that there are funny rumours (source: Geenee Tang) regarding my dad wrote a letter to STB to complaint about someone. My reply to her was, "How capable! My dad complaints to STB and I'm the last person to know. Or she know my dad?" Can't believe an old woman who lived almost half a century and yet doing something this childish.
Chill... Ok. I shall not spoil my day because of that old woman. Anyway, haha.. I can't stop turning to look behind me. Got buffet! hehe.. So hungry. Sniff sniff..
Friday, September 5
Games Convention Asia 2008 & F1
It's time to send free dates again. Has been spending almost 2 hours to decide the dates available for work. It's all their fault. Why couldn't their instructions be clearer? But anyway, 18-20 Sept, it's confirmed that I'll be on duty for the GCA2008. 20-25 Sept will be F1, but will not be working for all 6days.
Now I'm regretting. Why did I fight with seokming to work for the GCA? It would most probably be fun.. But definitely not in this horrible uniform! I'll probably look like an idiot.
Now I'm regretting. Why did I fight with seokming to work for the GCA? It would most probably be fun.. But definitely not in this horrible uniform! I'll probably look like an idiot.
Saturday, August 30
I can't decide...
I was offered a job by I Love Children recently. Now i'm confused... should i accept? It would really be a good experience, and I would really love to say yes! But the issue here is that I have to continue working after school reopens (perm part-timer). I have no idea how my schedule will be like. Would I be able to cope? Should I or should I not?? ? What do u think? I really need your comments... thanks in advance... =)
Friday, August 22
Ending AIPA 2008
Blogging daily throughout this AIPA conference event was my initially plan, but I just had no time to do so. Every day's programme started early in the morning and ends late at night. It was tiring indeed, yet everyone had their share of fun. 
That's my Russian Head of Delegation speaking. A sweet gentleman. (Below)
We accompanied the delegations to Jurong Bird Park for dinner on Wed, and to Istana for reception and courtesy call on Thur. On the way to Istana, I sat beside a Laos Delegation in the bus and we had a small chat. Sigh.. I should have opened my mouth. This was what happened:
Me: Is this your first time to Singapore?
Del.: No, this is my third time. I have been here for 3 times for this AIPA conference. But the last time I was here, it was't this president.
Me: Oh.. So it was Goh Chok Tong?
Del.: No, not the Prime Minister, is the president.
Me: Oh... So have you visited all the attrations in Singapore?
So malu.. Hai bu kuai dian change topic.... -_-"
Yesterday for the entire day, I didn't really get to see my 6 delegations. They decided not to go for the plenary session and closing ceremony, so I don't have to meet them. So for the whole afternoon, I was with Seokming and her 3 Canadian delegations. (Sounds so irresponsible...)
We went for a tour at the Parliament house, and we had a lot of fun (and embarrassment moment for seokming and I). On the way to the Parliament house, her delegations asked us about the old parliament house. We happliy said it was for voting during election. (Trying to prevent saying donnoe - so act smart. anyhow give one answer.) During the start of the tour, the guide said; "The old parliament house is just right behind this building, and it's now used as the Arts House."
We feel like digging a hole and hide inside. Haolian la.. Kaypo la.. When the tour guide said that there were many schools who came to the parliament house for a tour every year, one of the delegates turned to me and said:" so you have never been here?" Paisae - for the second time. I said no. At the end of the tour, he asked again: " So have you got all the answers from the tour?" Argh.... Paisae for the third time. After that they went to Raffles hotel's Long Bar and ordered a jar of beer. Well, of cos Seokming and I declined their offer and took some soft rinks instead. It was pretty exciting. We had a great time.
Later in the evening, there was a dinner at Sentosa, but due to the shortage of time (2 of my delegations were flying off this morning at 2am), all 6 decided not to go for the dinner. And since they are not going, I'm free from duty! hehe..
For today's heritage tour, I didn't get to join them because I remembered the wrong timing! I'll be going back to Shangri-la Hotel to pass them some gifts from myself as souvenirs. Feeling so sleepy now.. TBC 
That's my Russian Head of Delegation speaking. A sweet gentleman. (Below)
Tuesday, August 19
Asean Inter-Parliamentary Assembly (AIPA) 2008
This event is registered through our course. Our roles for this event are liason officers. I'm being allocated to the Observer country - Russian delegations (total of 6). In another word, I'm the secretary between the Singapore Parliament and the delegation secretary.
Today was the first day of event. I was pretty nervous. I went to "welcome" the arrival of the delegations with the MP, Mr Sam Tan. After everything was settled with the immigration and their luggage, I sent them off to Shangri-la hotel in a mini-bus. There are many procedures to be done.. erm.. well.. perhaps not exactly, just that this is my first time handling such event. I would say that this is a challenging job. I really pity the chief Liason Officer. All of us are first timer, and his phone's battery was flat by evening.
Communication is an issue. Most of them could speak English, but... you really have to figure out what they are trying to say. There are many things we have to know at our finger tips. It's not easy. The first day of event, and I'm half dead. Many changes, many requirements made to be fulfilled, many arrangements to be made. My phone has rang so many times today, and it's really irritating and stressful. But.. it's fun afterall!
Allright... gtg. gotta wake up at 6am tmr... Argh... Nite!
Today was the first day of event. I was pretty nervous. I went to "welcome" the arrival of the delegations with the MP, Mr Sam Tan. After everything was settled with the immigration and their luggage, I sent them off to Shangri-la hotel in a mini-bus. There are many procedures to be done.. erm.. well.. perhaps not exactly, just that this is my first time handling such event. I would say that this is a challenging job. I really pity the chief Liason Officer. All of us are first timer, and his phone's battery was flat by evening.
Communication is an issue. Most of them could speak English, but... you really have to figure out what they are trying to say. There are many things we have to know at our finger tips. It's not easy. The first day of event, and I'm half dead. Many changes, many requirements made to be fulfilled, many arrangements to be made. My phone has rang so many times today, and it's really irritating and stressful. But.. it's fun afterall!
Allright... gtg. gotta wake up at 6am tmr... Argh... Nite!
Wednesday, August 6
This is so exciting!
$9 per hr shift. Although there is no double pay on public holiday, $9 per holiday is enough to make the interns crazy. Perhaps it's due to the low pay when we're interns (almost $3 per hr). It seems like me and seokming are so cash tight. No one wants to work on weekend, and we're requesting to work to extra hours out of the normal 9hrs (minus one hr break).
So...
Sat: 8.15am to 5.15pm, 5.15pm to 10.30pm. (Both at airport)
Sun: 5.45am to 2.45pm, 3.45pm to 10.30pm. (Airport then Hereen)
No doubt it's pretty tiring... but just of a couple of days. won't ":x" rite... This month cannot say the word. So I'm praying hard now. let me work, let me work, let me work.... hehe..
Anyway, just now seokming and I went back to school to hand up portfolio. There are some event going on in school. I was so bored. I participated in the SUDOKU. Well well well.. I mentioned this not becos I won, but, I gave up. It was after I've spent 47mins and 7secs on the stupid piece of yellow paper. ARGH.. I have no choice. I guess you would do the same thing when u saw two "8"s in the same row at 41 secs. and you're 60% completed. I totally have no idea which number to erase. Sad. But the good thing is, seokming was accompanying me. haha.. How lonely it would be if I'm alone. Sian diao rite.. Hehe..
and tmr, I'm going KBox with Tony! Happy Happy!
So...
Sat: 8.15am to 5.15pm, 5.15pm to 10.30pm. (Both at airport)
Sun: 5.45am to 2.45pm, 3.45pm to 10.30pm. (Airport then Hereen)
No doubt it's pretty tiring... but just of a couple of days. won't ":x" rite... This month cannot say the word. So I'm praying hard now. let me work, let me work, let me work.... hehe..
Anyway, just now seokming and I went back to school to hand up portfolio. There are some event going on in school. I was so bored. I participated in the SUDOKU. Well well well.. I mentioned this not becos I won, but, I gave up. It was after I've spent 47mins and 7secs on the stupid piece of yellow paper. ARGH.. I have no choice. I guess you would do the same thing when u saw two "8"s in the same row at 41 secs. and you're 60% completed. I totally have no idea which number to erase. Sad. But the good thing is, seokming was accompanying me. haha.. How lonely it would be if I'm alone. Sian diao rite.. Hehe..
and tmr, I'm going KBox with Tony! Happy Happy!
Sunday, July 27
结束至开始
一段故事的结束，连接着另一段故事的开始。这段日子似乎经历了好多。感情上，学业上，人生经验上 - 都领悟了好多。学着放开，学着原谅，学着满足，学着爱。最终，开心才是最重要的。
对于现在的生活 - 我好满足。平静，幸福。虽然偶尔回忆会脑袋口敲敲门，心里还是能笑着说:"欢迎"。因为我还是幸福的、最受宠的。tony 常说:" 每次看到你的都没好事"。 这次就让你开心一次。=P
好快的，四个半月的实习接近尾端。接下来的假期，我依然会在新加坡旅游局打工。不同的是，薪水多了，时间由自己操控，也不会因为自己以实习生的生分而觉得约束。会快乐些对吧? =D 实习的作业都终于完成了! 就快被这些琐碎的是给烦死了。我暂时摆脱了它们，简直松了一口气。
笑着迎接未来 - 幸福近在不远处。
对于现在的生活 - 我好满足。平静，幸福。虽然偶尔回忆会脑袋口敲敲门，心里还是能笑着说:"欢迎"。因为我还是幸福的、最受宠的。tony 常说:" 每次看到你的都没好事"。 这次就让你开心一次。=P
好快的，四个半月的实习接近尾端。接下来的假期，我依然会在新加坡旅游局打工。不同的是，薪水多了，时间由自己操控，也不会因为自己以实习生的生分而觉得约束。会快乐些对吧? =D 实习的作业都终于完成了! 就快被这些琐碎的是给烦死了。我暂时摆脱了它们，简直松了一口气。
笑着迎接未来 - 幸福近在不远处。
Wednesday, June 25
Monday, June 23
Personality Test
You are a BUILDER / explorer
You are popular, trustworthy and dependable. People like you for many reasons; but among them you tend to be stable, loyal and caring and you have a wonderful knack for common sense.
You are a guardian. Your relationships with friends, kin and colleagues are important to you. So you spend time and energy developing and defending these social networks.
You are a good executive and manager. People almost instinctively feel you can supervise financial, business and social issues effectively. And because you are sensible and factual, you can.
You work hard. You like schedules. You are detail oriented. And you tend to respect traditions. So you bring strength and stability to your social and business environments.
Yet you admire people who are spontaneous and you enjoy new and different ideas and experiences, as long as they are not dangerous. Respectability and appropriateness are important to you. And you are capable of deep, solid friendships.
** ** ** ** **
Your Major and Minor Personality Types
Your major personality type = Builder
Your minor personality type = Explorer
Explorer - 25%
Negotiator - 24%
Builder - 27%
Director - 23%
How your personality breaks out
Characteristics of all four personality types can be found within each of us, but there is almost always one personality type that is dominant. We call this the major personality type.
The Personality Profile also identifies your minor or secondary personality type. You exhibit some aspects of this personality type, though not to the same degree as with your major type.
Builder, 27%: Usually very popular. Deep attachment to home and family. Calm demeanor and low anxiety. Often consistent, loyal and protective.
Explorer, 25%: Known for high energy, high creativity and spontaneity. Seeks novelty, risk and pleasure. Intellectually curious and not easily swayed by opinion.
Negotiator, 24%: Excels at seeing the big picture, long-term planning and consensus building. An intuitive thinker who is flexible, verbal and socially skilled. Imaginative, empathetic and nurturing.
Director, 23%: Daring, original, direct and inventive. A non-conformist. Skilled at abstract thinking and short-term planning. Often assertive and quite competitive. Tough-minded and efficient.
You are popular, trustworthy and dependable. People like you for many reasons; but among them you tend to be stable, loyal and caring and you have a wonderful knack for common sense.
You are a guardian. Your relationships with friends, kin and colleagues are important to you. So you spend time and energy developing and defending these social networks.
You are a good executive and manager. People almost instinctively feel you can supervise financial, business and social issues effectively. And because you are sensible and factual, you can.
You work hard. You like schedules. You are detail oriented. And you tend to respect traditions. So you bring strength and stability to your social and business environments.
Yet you admire people who are spontaneous and you enjoy new and different ideas and experiences, as long as they are not dangerous. Respectability and appropriateness are important to you. And you are capable of deep, solid friendships.
** ** ** ** **
Your Major and Minor Personality Types
Your major personality type = Builder
Your minor personality type = Explorer
Explorer - 25%
Negotiator - 24%
Builder - 27%
Director - 23%
How your personality breaks out
Characteristics of all four personality types can be found within each of us, but there is almost always one personality type that is dominant. We call this the major personality type.
The Personality Profile also identifies your minor or secondary personality type. You exhibit some aspects of this personality type, though not to the same degree as with your major type.
Builder, 27%: Usually very popular. Deep attachment to home and family. Calm demeanor and low anxiety. Often consistent, loyal and protective.
Explorer, 25%: Known for high energy, high creativity and spontaneity. Seeks novelty, risk and pleasure. Intellectually curious and not easily swayed by opinion.
Negotiator, 24%: Excels at seeing the big picture, long-term planning and consensus building. An intuitive thinker who is flexible, verbal and socially skilled. Imaginative, empathetic and nurturing.
Director, 23%: Daring, original, direct and inventive. A non-conformist. Skilled at abstract thinking and short-term planning. Often assertive and quite competitive. Tough-minded and efficient.
Wednesday, May 28
Crazy woman
Lesson today is cancelled. the teacher went holiday. the stupid person working there told us so last min.
After that I was on my way home just now, and I stood at the traffic light, and keep pressing the button. Donnoe where on earth pop out this crazy woman ask me not to press so many times, press once enough, programmed system, bla bla bla... and then i told her off.
I was so polite. What I did was, I smiled at her and said: "it's none of your business". and I crossed the road.. haha... so happy.. cos I even heard someone laughing behind! its not even her hand. press how many time must ask her meh? crazy. haha... i'm so polite, cos i still got smile, and i never add "shut ur mouth up" in front. muahahaha... evil. but serve her right. who ask her kpo so much. muahahaha..... =P
Sigh.. project coming up. after that will be our portfolio.. stress.. there seems to be so much things undone.. still, I miss kbox. I miss kbox with my dearest friends!! Argh...
After that I was on my way home just now, and I stood at the traffic light, and keep pressing the button. Donnoe where on earth pop out this crazy woman ask me not to press so many times, press once enough, programmed system, bla bla bla... and then i told her off.
I was so polite. What I did was, I smiled at her and said: "it's none of your business". and I crossed the road.. haha... so happy.. cos I even heard someone laughing behind! its not even her hand. press how many time must ask her meh? crazy. haha... i'm so polite, cos i still got smile, and i never add "shut ur mouth up" in front. muahahaha... evil. but serve her right. who ask her kpo so much. muahahaha..... =P
Sigh.. project coming up. after that will be our portfolio.. stress.. there seems to be so much things undone.. still, I miss kbox. I miss kbox with my dearest friends!! Argh...
Monday, May 19
Sick~
I should have known it; the symptom of falling sick - sudden thrist. Friday night, I was dying for water. No matter how much I've drank, it simply doesn't help. On Saturday morning, there comes the bad sorethroat, slight cough and flu. Saturday afternoon, slight fever came along. Saturday night, fever subsided, and I thought I was recovering. I fell asleep at about 12am (I think).
Next morning (woke up at 8.30am), I realised that the fever is back! And then, it became worse - sorethroat, cough, flu, headache, bodyache, high fever. No choice - went to the doctor for MC. Reached home at 10.30am and fell asleep again. woke up a number of times (to take medicine and to toilet), and back to sleep. woke up "officially" at 10am on monday. about 30 hours of sleep. but... I still feel very sleepy now. Probably sleep too much.
Stupid doctor. Never give medicine for sorethroat. Still hurts like hell. can't really talk much. still have to work tmr! ARGH!!! Feel like I've wasted so much time.
Next morning (woke up at 8.30am), I realised that the fever is back! And then, it became worse - sorethroat, cough, flu, headache, bodyache, high fever. No choice - went to the doctor for MC. Reached home at 10.30am and fell asleep again. woke up a number of times (to take medicine and to toilet), and back to sleep. woke up "officially" at 10am on monday. about 30 hours of sleep. but... I still feel very sleepy now. Probably sleep too much.
Stupid doctor. Never give medicine for sorethroat. Still hurts like hell. can't really talk much. still have to work tmr! ARGH!!! Feel like I've wasted so much time.
Saturday, April 26
So long since...
It has been quite some time since I last blog. has been busy with SIP. Initial excitement died down, and being a CSO at the SVC is becoming a routine job. Not much changes, everything depends highly on individual's mood. Well, perhaps it's due to the fact that i'll be going to be at airport took away the excitement and eagerness to work. Longer working hours; and i hate it! Other than that, I don't have much complaints about SIP..
As for general, well, I quite hate myself recently. I donnoe why, but, it just happens to be so. I get very irritated easily. It had been so long since I felt this way - a feeling of rebellion. I really don't want to, but I couldn't help it; I couldn't explain.. Or.. perhaps I could?
Something is missing in my life. Somthing once gained, but lost. I have no idea what it is. But I have a strong feeling - it wouldn't be back - it's lost forever. What is it? A feeling? a belief? or myself? I really don't know..
As for general, well, I quite hate myself recently. I donnoe why, but, it just happens to be so. I get very irritated easily. It had been so long since I felt this way - a feeling of rebellion. I really don't want to, but I couldn't help it; I couldn't explain.. Or.. perhaps I could?
Something is missing in my life. Somthing once gained, but lost. I have no idea what it is. But I have a strong feeling - it wouldn't be back - it's lost forever. What is it? A feeling? a belief? or myself? I really don't know..
Wednesday, March 19
Internship with STB
It has been three days of training with STB. It was really a fun and exciting experience, despite of the long hours. We went to visit the Singapore Visitor Centres(SVC) at Orchard, Taka, and Changi Airport. Just the first day of training and there were so much things that we had to know.
Second day, which was yesterday, we went to the Zoo in the afternoon, and then the Night Safari. It had been ten years after my last visit to the Zoo. Haha.. and I realised that I could not even remember anything and the Zoo. The changes were too great. After the Zoo, the Zoo's management hosted us for dinner at the Ulu Ulu Safari restaurant. It was a buffet style restaurant, and the food was great!
And today, third day of training, we went to many places. Well, we went exploring some hidden places in Singapore, and it was kinda exciting. Just that I was feeling too sleepy due to lack of energy(not enough food). okok.. in another words, I was HUNGRY! haha..
Anyway, I was pretty amazed with some places. for examples, the Rochester Park, where that are a number of restaurants, as well as Dempsey Hill, which I was the best place (which I thought) for the day. Weel, wanna know why? hehe.. find out yourself!
Oh ya, before that, we went onto the DHL hot air balloon! Sounds cool rite?? ok la.. not as fun as it seems actually. Just that u were 150m up the sky. LOL.. but still, it's a good experience. All in all, I'm enjoying this training with STB, with such a good trainer and the STB seniors. It's like a big big family. I love STB.
Second day, which was yesterday, we went to the Zoo in the afternoon, and then the Night Safari. It had been ten years after my last visit to the Zoo. Haha.. and I realised that I could not even remember anything and the Zoo. The changes were too great. After the Zoo, the Zoo's management hosted us for dinner at the Ulu Ulu Safari restaurant. It was a buffet style restaurant, and the food was great!
And today, third day of training, we went to many places. Well, we went exploring some hidden places in Singapore, and it was kinda exciting. Just that I was feeling too sleepy due to lack of energy(not enough food). okok.. in another words, I was HUNGRY! haha..
Anyway, I was pretty amazed with some places. for examples, the Rochester Park, where that are a number of restaurants, as well as Dempsey Hill, which I was the best place (which I thought) for the day. Weel, wanna know why? hehe.. find out yourself!
Oh ya, before that, we went onto the DHL hot air balloon! Sounds cool rite?? ok la.. not as fun as it seems actually. Just that u were 150m up the sky. LOL.. but still, it's a good experience. All in all, I'm enjoying this training with STB, with such a good trainer and the STB seniors. It's like a big big family. I love STB.
Saturday, March 15
弦歌有你 Jeff Chang & Symphony Orchestra 2008 - I simply love it!
Friday, March 14
The ending holiday
Holiday is ending. It seems like I've done nothing over the few weeks except working and clearing the poo poo of the rabbits. Exam results are finally out. I was glad. No sub paper. Muahahaha. I thought I'll get so many Ds. at least 3. Something like a one time collection of Ds. But then, the good news is, there's only one D. Just that my GPA dropped. But. whatever. It's good enough. Hehe.. =D
Oh yes. Jeff's concert's tmr! OMG. So excited. haha.. But i think i won't be excited after the concert ends. Cos, SIP is gonna start on monday. Sigh.. I really wonder if I should work. I haven't enjoy enough. Really..
Oh yes. Jeff's concert's tmr! OMG. So excited. haha.. But i think i won't be excited after the concert ends. Cos, SIP is gonna start on monday. Sigh.. I really wonder if I should work. I haven't enjoy enough. Really..
Monday, March 3
幸福定义
这些日子，我好开心、好幸福。至少我喜欢这种踏踏实实的感觉；没有猜疑，没有压力，也没有担忧。太多的不确定让我选择放弃了最最快乐的日子。原因很简单: 安全感战胜了那‘最最快乐的日子’。安全感如唇、快乐如齿。少了安全感的爱情，日子过得再快乐，结果只有一个 ~ 保受威胁。
对我而言，最大的幸福莫过于一个‘信’字。
幸福 ~ 一直围绕在身边。
幸福 ~ 一旦错过了，将可能永远失去。
幸福 ~ 只有靠自己去争取。
幸福 ~ 一个永远的避风港~
对我而言，最大的幸福莫过于一个‘信’字。
幸福 ~ 一直围绕在身边。
幸福 ~ 一旦错过了，将可能永远失去。
幸福 ~ 只有靠自己去争取。
幸福 ~ 一个永远的避风港~
Why?!
Well, VERY TIRED. didn't got enough sleep. And my jobscope requires a lot of physical efforts. The organisation is moving their office, and my job is to pack all their stuffs and logistics. it's a 2 level office, and I'm the only person doing the tough job. I hate it when instructions weren't clear, and i have to repack everything again and again. It makes the job sucks so much, and makes me feel so lethagic.
Actually my day wasn't that bad. Partly because I slept late last nite, and some other things that actually keep bothering me throughout. The blog posting which tony told me. I couldn't stop thinking. I'm sorry. But if I say it doesn't affect me at all, I'm lying. And I hate to lie.
Knowing that I'm having tuition with my cousins, I rushed home for 2 purposes; to shower, and to read the blog. I wasn't sure what I wanted to see, I wasn't sure how i was feeling at that point of time. I knew I couldn't hide. It was after reading then I realised, my purpose for reading was that, I wanted to know what the purpose the content. but after having read the 2 main posts, I still couldn't understand. All I know was, he knew that we would definitely read his blog (we are the audience).
I asked myself this question. Does it matter? Most probably not. I've made my choice, and I have no doubt about it.
Actually my day wasn't that bad. Partly because I slept late last nite, and some other things that actually keep bothering me throughout. The blog posting which tony told me. I couldn't stop thinking. I'm sorry. But if I say it doesn't affect me at all, I'm lying. And I hate to lie.
Knowing that I'm having tuition with my cousins, I rushed home for 2 purposes; to shower, and to read the blog. I wasn't sure what I wanted to see, I wasn't sure how i was feeling at that point of time. I knew I couldn't hide. It was after reading then I realised, my purpose for reading was that, I wanted to know what the purpose the content. but after having read the 2 main posts, I still couldn't understand. All I know was, he knew that we would definitely read his blog (we are the audience).
I asked myself this question. Does it matter? Most probably not. I've made my choice, and I have no doubt about it.
Wednesday, February 27
Sweety friends
My two new friends. Oreo~Choco!
haha.. They've been here for five days le. For most of the time, all I cann see is them eating - eating all day from morning till night. I just love them so much!!!
But.. but... just now... OREO TREAT ME TEA! -.-" She sat on my skirt.. then i was like.. "Eh... how come warm warm one?" OMG! Sigh... faster went home change.
Anyway, gotta go sleep now. Working tmr. haha.. Shall continue to introduce my new friends to u when I got the time. Hehe.. Good nite!
haha.. They've been here for five days le. For most of the time, all I cann see is them eating - eating all day from morning till night. I just love them so much!!!
But.. but... just now... OREO TREAT ME TEA! -.-" She sat on my skirt.. then i was like.. "Eh... how come warm warm one?" OMG! Sigh... faster went home change.
Anyway, gotta go sleep now. Working tmr. haha.. Shall continue to introduce my new friends to u when I got the time. Hehe.. Good nite!
Wednesday, February 13
Auntie's New Year Mao Mao
PRETTY NEW YEAR MAO MAO MAO! haha...
Hey... the world is fair. You won't believe it.
They receive ang baos also hor.. -.-"
Saturday, February 9
Sunday, February 3
微笑的真贵
其实我应该满足了。我拥有了一段我渴望，但原本就不属于我的幸福。
是命 - 我一向来都知道。就因为知道，所以才不舍得。无论如何，
我应该感谢上苍，让我拥有一段 - 一辈子加起来都得不到的幸福。
我还可以奢求什么?
可是我不明白， 为何我坚定的决定，却治不了我的泪水呢?
是命 - 我一向来都知道。就因为知道，所以才不舍得。无论如何，
我应该感谢上苍，让我拥有一段 - 一辈子加起来都得不到的幸福。
我还可以奢求什么?
可是我不明白， 为何我坚定的决定，却治不了我的泪水呢?
Friday, February 1
拥抱
作晚只睡了两个半小时。说是读书，但其实我连自己在读些什么都不知道。心里好矛盾，好难过。突然间想起橱里的一本书《拥抱幸福的自己》。 也许是应为出世的前几年都由外婆照顾，所以小时候和父母的关系都不太好，很少机会感受被紧紧拥抱的感觉。记得小时候我常常妄想自己以后被拥抱的感觉-一定非常温暖、非常特殊…但现在，我最渴望、最思念的拥抱，我却不敢要，也没胆量要…
其实这几天我好难过。脑子里不断浮现我们第三此出去，他望着我的那种眼神。现在大概不会再看见了。前两天我都在避开他。我好气，好恨，但我无法不难过，不想念。一旦静下来，我总会热泪盈眶。但这些涌上来的泪水，我只有往肚子里咽。我不敢面对，也不想面对…
对于刚才那个(关于学校的)惊喜，也只不过那么短暂而已。我无法肯定自己要的究竟是什么。我只直到，这种断断续续的痛，我又得从新经历一次。我好想要，但我要不起。我快疯了。真的快疯了…
想一个人静一静…
想一个人静一静…
Thursday, January 31
Mao Mao + Other Nonsense
Sigh... I saw the Mao Mao when I reached home. Haven't been seeing it for some days. Really miss him... (or her?) . Haiz.. I think Mao Mao must have just taken it's dinner. Cos it ignored me!! Sad. Next time no food for him (or her -_-") .
Hmm..... just kidding.
This is my dad's crazy "jie zuo" (just change sofa's cover. did this to not let my sis slp in living room, on the sofa):
Hmm..... just kidding.
This is my dad's crazy "jie zuo" (just change sofa's cover. did this to not let my sis slp in living room, on the sofa):
Anyway, I just had my first interview today. Well, was as bad as the first group interview I had went through for the overseas student internship. I really hope I can get in. Don't really want to spend time for other interview. I would rather they just dump me in any nonsense company and fget done with it. If not still gotta memorise stuffs abt the company.. dress up.. and so on. Really tiring - and a waste of time.
Having MICE test tmr. haven't really study. Didn't really slp well last night - woke up more than 5 times. Kinda tired today - keeping falling asleep. Now i decided to jump out of my comfort zome and force myself to the living room. But then... ... actually the sofa isn't bad either. -_-"
Nvm. Whatever it is, I'll try not to slp tonight. There so many things to study. (I can't believe I still have the time to blog here.) I haven't do (and figure out) my Accounting tutorial. I can't believe this. Still have to stay back for ticketing lab class tmr right after accounting lecture. My class tmr thus starts from 9 to 6. + tuitioning for my cousin right I reach home and have my shower. Full day of tireness, and one sleepness night. Sad..
Argh!!!! So many things not done!!! AND WHY AM I STILL HERE????????
Wednesday, January 30
Tuesday, January 29
Crazy
I can't believe it. I actually thought that my PT2 is next week. haiz. serve me right. can't be bothered to check la.. assume, assume and assume. haha..
Anyway, other than this PT2, i have so many other deadlines coming up. haven't really gone shopping for CNY. and.. my com just died on me! haha.. haven't learn my lesson. haiz..
Anyway, thursday got STB interview! I'm very nervous. it's gonna be grp interview again. I had very bad experience in grp interview, and really have no confidence in "grabbing" that internship for SIP.
Will be having a test on Friday. Haven't even touch. Die. Die. Die. I dun even have the complete set of notes. Haven't done my accounting tutorial. la la la.... going crazy. haha.. how how how??? i really donnoe what to do le. now waiting for my uncle to rescue my com. I'm so luan so luan so luan. haha.. ok. should end my nonsense for today. Good nite!
Anyway, other than this PT2, i have so many other deadlines coming up. haven't really gone shopping for CNY. and.. my com just died on me! haha.. haven't learn my lesson. haiz..
Anyway, thursday got STB interview! I'm very nervous. it's gonna be grp interview again. I had very bad experience in grp interview, and really have no confidence in "grabbing" that internship for SIP.
Will be having a test on Friday. Haven't even touch. Die. Die. Die. I dun even have the complete set of notes. Haven't done my accounting tutorial. la la la.... going crazy. haha.. how how how??? i really donnoe what to do le. now waiting for my uncle to rescue my com. I'm so luan so luan so luan. haha.. ok. should end my nonsense for today. Good nite!
Saturday, January 26
Misses~
I miss my guiding life~ The fun, the sharing, the love.
Taps:
Thanks and praise,
For our days,
'Neath the sun, Neath the stars, 'Neath the sky,
As we go,
This we know,
God is nigh.
The Promise:
I promise to do my best,
to do my duty to God.
To serve my country and help other people,
and to keep the guides' law.
(Shall I sign up as a Young Adult?)
Taps:
Thanks and praise,
For our days,
'Neath the sun, Neath the stars, 'Neath the sky,
As we go,
This we know,
God is nigh.
The Promise:
I promise to do my best,
to do my duty to God.
To serve my country and help other people,
and to keep the guides' law.
(Shall I sign up as a Young Adult?)
Friday, January 25
好想珍惜生命；请让我死一次-就一次
好久没到海边散步了。今晚的海风特别冷，也特别残忍。为何不将我冻死?
可否有哪位好心人-在我此刻的生命添上一点鲜艳的色彩? 就要一把刀，往我心脏捅。我先谢谢你，你做了件好事。
我不在开玩笑。
可否有哪位好心人-在我此刻的生命添上一点鲜艳的色彩? 就要一把刀，往我心脏捅。我先谢谢你，你做了件好事。
我不在开玩笑。
Wednesday, January 23
Libra
Libra's sign is represented by the balance. How i wish I am able to use this balance - to balance and calculate everything in life...
Friday, January 18
I've finally deeply understood...
I thought this would be the best project ever. But i turns out to be TOTALLY opposite. It's really a matter of luck. We really did best out of this project. But "天不做美". We were taught a particular law in Festivals and Events Management - the Murphy's law. It states that: "Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong". Innitially, I only agree with it. But now, I strongly agree with it cos it happened to my project group on this day of project submission.
Everything that went wrong happened every minute. So much that I couldn't even state them out. But my conclusion is, everything relates to the motto of girl guides - Be prepared. Perhaps we wasn't prepared for this, and thus things turns out to be the least expected.Well, I'm sad. Really sad. I was really hoping that this would be my best project ever.
The good thing is, another proposal done. One less to worry. I'm feeling so lost now. Cos there're more things to come. 1.The coming up will be the presentation on monday. 2&3. And for this same subject, we have 2 more individual report to be handed up. 4. One MICE class test, 5. one ticketing & reservation test, 6. SSM project, 7. I haven't settle my SIP (resumesss and interviewsss), 8. MICE Exam, 9. Accounting Exam... I can't remember whether there are still any. but the list above is already fatal. I can't cry - no time. but i can't laugh either. I feel so much like a Zombie.
I miss my life. I miss my friends. I miss my grandma. I miss my cross-stitch. I miss my novels. I miss Kbox with Peiyu and Cheryl. I miss Keith. I miss the beach at night. So much things that I miss. I really do... :'(
Everything that went wrong happened every minute. So much that I couldn't even state them out. But my conclusion is, everything relates to the motto of girl guides - Be prepared. Perhaps we wasn't prepared for this, and thus things turns out to be the least expected.Well, I'm sad. Really sad. I was really hoping that this would be my best project ever.
The good thing is, another proposal done. One less to worry. I'm feeling so lost now. Cos there're more things to come. 1.The coming up will be the presentation on monday. 2&3. And for this same subject, we have 2 more individual report to be handed up. 4. One MICE class test, 5. one ticketing & reservation test, 6. SSM project, 7. I haven't settle my SIP (resumesss and interviewsss), 8. MICE Exam, 9. Accounting Exam... I can't remember whether there are still any. but the list above is already fatal. I can't cry - no time. but i can't laugh either. I feel so much like a Zombie.
I miss my life. I miss my friends. I miss my grandma. I miss my cross-stitch. I miss my novels. I miss Kbox with Peiyu and Cheryl. I miss Keith. I miss the beach at night. So much things that I miss. I really do... :'(
Sunday, January 13
This song that keep running thru my mind today - I believe (By Liu Ruo Ying)
http://www.tt78.com/player/222/41256.htm
I simply love the lyrics...歌曲：I Believe 歌手：刘若英
是三月底 的决定想自己 去旅行我们的爱 也许应该休息
I believe 我回来的时候 会更相爱你等著我 保证不会错
I believe 无论在哪里
I believe 隔几千公里
I believe 爱是让人幸福的真理
I believe 你会想著我
I believe 你也在难过
and I believe 爱如果足够
谁管它 隔著几个山头
I believe 爱你像著了火
我要你要你 不知所措
and I believe 有了你 有了我
以后 日子会快乐
有时候 我也疑惑
有时候 觉得难受
始终相信 我们的爱会更深厚
要答应啊 你也会在
尽心经营 这一份爱
等待我回来 会比从前更热爱
I believe 无论在哪里
I believe 隔几千公里
yes I believe 爱是让人幸福的真理
I believe 你会想著我
I believe 你也在难过
and I believe 爱要是不成熟
不会有 一辈子的温柔
I believe 我拥有自我
I believe 你爱我 这么做
and I believe 有了你 有了我
以后 日子会快乐
I believe 你会想著我
I believe 你一样难过
and I believe 爱如果足够
谁管它 隔著几个山头
I believe 我拥有自我
I believe 你爱我 这么做
and I believe 有了你 有了我
以后 日子会快乐
I simply love the lyrics...歌曲：I Believe 歌手：刘若英
是三月底 的决定想自己 去旅行我们的爱 也许应该休息
I believe 我回来的时候 会更相爱你等著我 保证不会错
I believe 无论在哪里
I believe 隔几千公里
I believe 爱是让人幸福的真理
I believe 你会想著我
I believe 你也在难过
and I believe 爱如果足够
谁管它 隔著几个山头
I believe 爱你像著了火
我要你要你 不知所措
and I believe 有了你 有了我
以后 日子会快乐
有时候 我也疑惑
有时候 觉得难受
始终相信 我们的爱会更深厚
要答应啊 你也会在
尽心经营 这一份爱
等待我回来 会比从前更热爱
I believe 无论在哪里
I believe 隔几千公里
yes I believe 爱是让人幸福的真理
I believe 你会想著我
I believe 你也在难过
and I believe 爱要是不成熟
不会有 一辈子的温柔
I believe 我拥有自我
I believe 你爱我 这么做
and I believe 有了你 有了我
以后 日子会快乐
I believe 你会想著我
I believe 你一样难过
and I believe 爱如果足够
谁管它 隔著几个山头
I believe 我拥有自我
I believe 你爱我 这么做
and I believe 有了你 有了我
以后 日子会快乐
Thursday, January 3
Unexpected
This semester's subjects seems to be little, yet heavy; no matter how much i've completed, it doesn't seems to reach an end. So much more things to be done, and not really started. Most urgent being - FEM project (I think).. or was it Ticketing test? MICE project interview (includes memorising 20pgs of report and 5 lecture notes)? What about MICE presentation? SSM project? SSM glossary test? Sending SIP resume??? Sigh.. That's all I can remember for the time being. I just have no idea where I should start...
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