4 August - I changed my name from Tan Mei Xuan to Tan Yi Jing. Some sort of reflection to be done here -How has life been for the past 2 weeks? Hectic. Hasn't been sleeping well. Yesterday I have realy got no mood for work. I went to the doctor for mc, and was given 5 sleeping pills. just 5. I was used to be given 10. Anyway I've not taken any.
I'm getting sick of work. it was good initially when i just gotten use to it. but i wasn't when u got too use to it, when u know to much which u shouldn't. who exactly are you really working with? I know tt dofferent pple have difernt characteristics, and tt it's not possible to be friends with everyone. but i just simply hate the feeling. sometimes i wonder if i prefer working alone. when i was in i love children, when i was working alone. i love that peacefulness. and i really missed it. the days where u knew that there are so much to be completed, yet still look forward to work.
Well, enough of the once upon a time. Perhaps I should start taking the pills. I need them. I need more. I hate to wake up feeling nervous and excited over nothing. I hate work. I hate myself. when life on earth is as good as in hell...
