原来

原来幸福可以那么简单。好久没有那么开心，那么轻松。

这样就足够了 =）

一片混乱

从来不会这样子，生活一片混乱。似乎好像失去了灵魂。走路都像梦游，失去了平衡感。每天都不知到那一天是怎么过的。就连怎么呼吸都不记得。

对于考试成绩，我毫无信心。前方的路一片黯然，掩盖了思绪，掩盖了生活中的大大小小，更掩盖了一切计划。这时候的自己什么也不想做，可是真的没时间了。十二月又要考试了。。

真，假。

很多时候我觉得自己很好笨。别人说什么我都信。你说“没有",我不会怀疑你"有”。明知道真相很痛，却又忍不住想要揭穿一切。我真的不该，不该把对你最美好的印象给破坏。为何念了那么多书却还是那么傻？有谁能教教我如何分辨真假？难道朋友之间就没有诚实可言？

好期待明天。好想快点见到我最亲的家人。好想忘记今晚所发现的一切谎言...

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表弟的生日
今天只逗留了一会儿，觉得很不好意思。可是真的没办法。虽然礼物和祝福都送上了，还是想真心祝福他，但愿他今天的灿烂笑容时时刻刻都跟随着他。（=

给：佑珊

美女！

从公园绕了一圈回来，途中突然想到你。不知到怎么跑着跑着，心里觉得好难过，好感慨。更想抱着你哭。昨天一早到机场接你的画面一一浮现。缘分真的很奇妙。天涯海角都让我们遇见了，还那么要好。想起昨天聊的话题，发觉我们似乎同命相连。幸福那么简单，却怎么离我们那么遥远，那么遥不可及。难道真是因为报应吗？

如果你看见我今天的博客，一定觉得我好傻。只是此刻的我，只能偷偷的躲在房里流泪... 或许幸福从来都不属于我。我也走不进“幸福"的世界里...

Falling in Love

Classes begin. Supposedly I should have no time for any other things. Somehow, I don't seem to be in a right state of mind to start school. I am not prepared. Instead of doing revision today, I had done nothing. I went for a jog in the afternoon, went to school for a wasted trip and back home for a nap, and for another jog at night. There goes my day.

I've begun to fall in love with gym. Unlike the heart, everything seems clear there. The speed, the time, and the distance. It seems to be the only place where I could feel my existence. and I'm starting to fall in love with it. You shall never know how addictive it could be, until you fall in love, and so, the pain that comes along with it. (:

An ending holiday

My 2weeks of holiday simply comes to an end in a blink of eyes. There it goes, and everything of hard work starts all over again. I knew that this would be a tougher semester - after so much changes. Every part of my life seems new - new life, new school, new friends (hopefully), new modules...

I'm not sure if such changes are welcomed, and whether I'm ready to adopt to such changes. All I'm sure is that such changes have provided me with new options, and therefore new decisions to be made. That's the part which I hate most. They just left me with tons of uncertainties which disrupt plans.  And that repeats the planning cycle all over again. 

Somehow I feel that this semester will not be a smooth one. But all I can do is wait, when the exam results are out. I am worried, so worried to the extent that I couldn't start any plans for now. If it happens that I failed both modules (which I really hope that will not happen), all plans made will have to be postponed. Crazy. If that's the case, when will I be able to graduate??!

Too many issues are haunting me. I couldn't even get a night of good rest. Waking to umpteen times in the middle of the night and forcing myself to get to sleep. and forcing myself to sleep longer in the morning because I know that I haven't got enough rest, when my body alarm is reminding me that it's time to wake up. Suddenly feel that sleep can be this miserable. or life can be this miserable. 

I had a long jog last night in the park. It was more than twice the distance I would usually jog.  During the jog, I was hoping that somehow I would just disappear, or vanish - altogether, and gone with the wind. 

因为了解，所以心痛...

你總是這樣說我　像一顆不容易溶化的糖果
帶我見你的朋友　又很得意的埋怨我沉默

＊　你追問我的行蹤　你在乎我的舉動
哄得我淚眼迷濛　做些事情讓我被感動

望著你　突然一陣心痛　一次又一次任那感情放縱
你的脆弱　讓我走不開　你的依賴　所以我存在

想著你　還是想到心痛　期待我做的　將來你都會懂
有一天　真如果有一天　但願我還在你記憶中　＊