A letter to P1

Dearest P1, I thought I know you so well. But the moment you revealed yourself to me, I realized how foreign you are. I'm not sure if that was you that I saw. I didn't see clearly in fact. Perhaps I took a glance and I suffered a shock. So much that I couldn't continue in knowing you more.

 After Xue Ying told me more about you, I realized that it was all a mental failure. What I saw was what I thought you were. But at that moment, I felt too lost and too helpless. All i could do was tobstare at you, blankly. As much as I hated to, P1. I'll see you again. But it cannot be worse than the fact that I can only see you the semester after next.

 Lots of hates Yijing

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我一直笑着，大声的笑着，好潇洒的笑着。 其实我好想哭。

My first professional paper, perhaps the most straightforward paper. Just too demoralizing on the other P papers. Exam is finally over. But I don't feel good. Not at all. Just lousy. And I never felt this lousy.